Everywhere I look I find someone prettier than me. Someone skinnier than me. It kills me. I've become a decently confident person, at least with guys, where I'm able to stick up for myself and pass up opportunities because I feel like I can do better/deserve better. But I don't believe anything anyone tells me. Like I have people on the street randomly telling me that I'm pretty, etc, but I just don't see it! I feel so overweight sometimes. With a roommate who's barely 100 pounds it's hard to compare myself to her. I know I have a body that some people want, and I'm happy with it sometimes. I just always feel like I can look better, and then I kick myself in the ass when I don't do anything about it. I think it's safe to say that every girl wants to be the prettiest one in the room, and it's almost worse when you have the potential to be (totally not saying I do, it's just a general statement), because then things get so competitive and you feel like you just have to keep improving yourself.

I just want to be totally content with myself. My mom said that was her biggest regret looking back on her early adult years- not being confident in her looks and herself as a person. It's okay to think you're attractive! I just wish I could actually feel confident, and not just act confident.