Everyone is addicted to something. I've never been a huge fan of drinking and I probably never will be, I've smoked or done any drugs other than what has been prescribed to me- the usual things that people my age seem to be so addicted to these days. That doesn't mean I wouldn't do it, I just don't really have a huge inclination to. It sounds super strange to find a way to phrase this, because I wouldn't exactly say that I'm boy crazy since that's kind of a middle school phrase, but it's kind of true. I think that's sort of my addiction. I always have to have something going on. It gets me into trouble a lot of the time, whether that's hurting someone or being hurt myself. It just gives me sort of a rush, I don't know... the chase of it all. The thing is, though, is that I'm not this huge player type. I seem like I am, because I make sure I don't throw all my marbles in for just one person (I know better than to do that), but at the end of the day that's all I want to do. I'm so excited for college because of the new experiences and new pool of guys, but I'm also dreading all of the one night stands or random hookups that are going to come with that. I just hate that. I don't want that. But I also don't know if I can handle a relationship. So where does that leave me?