Well. It's over. A year and a half year's of work is over. Vanished. I thought I would be so elated when this day came- to sum up my summer would be working endlessly and missing out on tons of fun things, and for what? No recognition.
We all live for hope. I hoped that my hard work would be recognized. Endless scheduling and staying there in the loneliness of the late night- I thought maybe it would all pay off somehow. And the broken heart, I thought that would be mended. Not that we would rekindle things- I know that would NEVER happen. It just isn't meant to happen. But some sort of peace talk, some sort of closure. Some sort of "I'll miss you."
Instead, what I got on my last day was a sharp, "See ya" from him. A pat on the back, no "Thank you" from anyone. Nothing. I just got sent off without a care. I started crying- tears streamed from my eyes as I walked out the door. I couldn't help but wonder why. I don't love it there. If you knew me you would know that. But I do so much there. Did so much, I guess. I was their glue, and they knew that. I put my heart and soul into that place and making it better. And I genuinely cared about the people. I have so much history there- so many good things, and so many bad things, and to leave it at a "see ya" broke my heart.
I thought maybe my last day would have closure. Things would be mended. But nothing was mended, and that sent me into a panic mode. I didn't see it ending like this.
I don't know how to feel.
I guess all it really is is a "See ya."
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